You Know They’re Gonna Try

Rough day.

I feel so down, like someone threw a weight on my chest and won’t pick it back off.  I guess I’m thinking too much, I usually do, but I feel like I’m always the bad guy.  I’m always cast in the role of villain and I try so hard not to be.  I’m not a bad person: I’m realistic. 

I wish more people would understand that.  I don’t doublespeak if I can avoid it, and I try to communicate as clearly as possible. If this is mistaken for something else, then I am no more guilty than anyone else. 

People make assumptions about everything - pretend they know you, and they don’t even know half of it.  If only I were interested in sharing it.  Maybe then someone would fully understand.

I’m not mean. I’m not stupid. I’m not…