I have been in a general state of “funk” recently.
Maybe I’m not in the right place, or maybe I’m just wandering around lost for the time being. I don’t know much about what lays ahead, no one does, but it seems like so many people have a plan - have action. I’m floating in the middle - adrift. There are seemingly endless possibilities, and committing is appealing sometimes, and then other times it is wholly terrifying.
I guess as graduation creeps closer and closer, the more anxiety I feel. The certainty of having a social outlet - like school - presses me into panic. I’m a social creature, and breaking from the bonds of the places I know and the things I am so familiar with is petrifying in a way I’ve never experienced before.
Going from High School to College wasn’t this kind of transition. For the most part, I knew the general trajectory - I’d be a nerd for a while, find some equally nerdy friends and we’d study some, and party some, and it’d all work out. I assumed college would bring around many more possibilities, but it didn’t - and that’s fine, expectations are hard things to meet.
Just putting my thoughts down for now. Pensive, I suppose, best describes my mood.
